Dreaming of a White Christmas in My Yellow Summer

It`s almost Christmas, and I love this period of year.

But I know that for most people, it’s a sad time, for many different reasons. However, for me, it’s not just about being happy or sad, but about taking the time to be reborn into a new life—even if that life doesn’t change at all. Yes, life goes on. We probably already have plans for after Christmas, and they’ll happen anyway.

What I’m trying to say is: it’s a time to be reborn from within. It’s not a cliché—it’s real life, plain and simple. I believe in this, and I’m not alone. Specialists in psychology and other professionals and researchers often say that if we want to change anything outside of us, we first need to change what’s inside. It’s a challenge, right? Absolutely! Changing ourselves is much harder than repeating the same things over and over or complaining endlessly.

I live in Brazil. Here, it’s summer, as it is in many other Latin American countries. But I like winter. I have a dream: to see snow falling somewhere in the world. Maybe this dream was inspired by American movies—it’s possible. But the fact is, it exists inside of me. Winter with snow sounds better and makes more sense to me than winter without it. One day, my dream will come true. I believe it!

Okay, but what’s the connection between winter and Christmas? Let me explain: it’s because of my dream. I really want to go abroad to experience a white Christmas.

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten
And children listen (Listen)
To hear sleigh bells in the snow

I’ve been reflecting on my dreams for 2024. Why haven’t I realized them yet? What dreams do I have? When did I start dreaming them? What’s holding me back from making them come true? So many questions for just one answer: insecurity.

Some people might say, “Just go! Focus on your dreams and make them happen,” or “You need to live every day as if it were your last,” or something similar. But for me, it’s not that simple. I have a rigid way of thinking and need to plan every single detail. I’ve done it a few times, but I’ve never followed through—apparently because of money. However, when I think more deeply, I’m sure it’s not about money. If I really wanted to go abroad, I would have done it by now. I’m a Google Planner, after all!

The truth is, traveling has never been a priority, even though I dream of a white Christmas. So, what’s the point? The point is: is my dream really a priority for me? Why or why not?

I’ve decided to make at least one dream come true this year. I believe that if God wants it too, I will make it happen. Because…

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
With every Christmas card I write
"May your days be merry and bright
And may all your Christmases be white